i'm rather unhappy about giving up korean for now, but i have no bloody time, energy and brain space to deal with the crazy korean alphabet -.- i think with enough korean variety shows i'll be able to manage basic korean, but i just don't have e time to learn to read korean now. japanese alone is alr taking up quite abit cos my teacher's going at breakneck speed and throwing 20 new verbs at us every week. and what to call your sister, brother, uncle, aunt, grandfather, grandmother, cousin, great-grandmother etc (you get the picture). i want to bang my head on my table and let my skull crack open alr -.-

and there's telders. and now conflicts moot. and essays coming up. and notes and readings to do. and oh god exams start 17th may. WTH. last year it started on e 25th or something larh. arghs. i'm getting stressed out -.-

and despite all this, because of the time of the year, my thoughts have occasionally been flitting back to certain memories. and till now, it makes me really sad to see how it all turned out. a misunderstanding that i never really got to sort out. and that's why we are the way we are now. but perhaps it doesn't matter to you. or me either. shrugs. i've erased what happened after and just keep the simple happy times. but i suppose it would be one of e most special memories of my life. haha. thank you (:

i credit so many stupid things i did to youth :p hahaha. but at the same time, isn't there joy in foolishness? to still be idealistic and trusting. to not be cynical and jaded. hahaha. call me a foolish kid. but i still want to be idealistic, trusting and give myself wholeheartedly to things i believe in. not all things, but some important ones. i don't think i'd be true to myself if i didn't do that.

you'll probably never know how much you changed me or affected me. you made me realise what kind of person i wanted to be, or rather, more specifically, the type of person i never want to be. for that, thank you.

back to hart -.-